Last updated on December 16th, 2023 at 02:41 pm
When you are on Nexus Mods, you can like a mod or a screenshot by clicking on the “Endorse” button. If you ask me as a mod/screenshot author, it’s a curse and blessing at the same time – it can boost my ego, and decrease it when I don’t get any or only a few endorsements. I don’t know how many authors made the “mistake” to connect their self-worth with the amount of endorsements (or likes, thumb-ups, …) they receive. It will be a long journey until I can disconnect my self-worth from the endorsements. I already found good advises in this thread. And as always, it will be a hard time to convince my inner critic to let me internalize these advises. That’s why I need a lot of time to change my routines to the better.
The first step of this long journey was disabling the endorsements of my upcoming screenshots which I started about one month ago. If you don’t have an account on Nexus Mods, I quoted the relevant part from the image description:
PS: I disabled the image endorsements this time because I have a bad habit of checking the endorsements very often and feel uncomfortable when I don’t get any. If this happens, I tend to delete the image entirely from the Nexus which I did with the previous image. I know that it’s not good for me to rely mostly on the recognition I get from other people. I want to change that but it’s very hard to change very old habits. So disabling endorsements is the first step towards the goal. I may the disable the endorsements of the upcoming Samuel follower mod as well.
The next step is disabling the endorsements of my upcoming mods, not only the follower mod.
I want to be able to say again that I create mods just for the fun like in the old days of my career as a mod author.
